power of words

this video reminds me how the same meaning expressed in two different words could deliver different effects to the world. then i reflect back to myself.

i used to be a person with harsh and painful words that hurt people i love. let's just say... i used to be sarcastic.  i recall those days when i'm talking with ex boyf on the phone, and give him some inputs. i did  not intend to hurt him at all. i don't know whether it was because of my mood or what, every single word came out from my mouth is just like thorns. harmful thorns, embedded to my loved one's heart. i want to stop it. i knew he was very sad listening to me. i knew i as his girl back there have done painful things to him with my words. i knew it but i can't stop.
my mom also told me that my words are just like knives on the air, which are ready to stab on those innocent hearts. well well, the one who judge who you really are is not you, isn't it? it is others. 

people said those with wounded heart tend to harm others as well. it's something like... revenge.

i reflect back to myself. i admit i was not a decent nor a worthy person for someone to laid his heart on me. i was hurt. i was in pain. i was in disappointments with him, want him to change but all he can do is just say sorry and repeat the same thing over and over again. then, i tends to hurt him with my words. so here i am on the process to change. i started up with my new year's resolution : forgiveness is the new revenge. i know it's not easy, but i have to. i am on my way to be a better me, and i won't let anyone to interrupt with it.
for today, i won't try anything to change people. i will just accept those people for who they are.  on the other hand, i still can choose which kind of people i want to be with, can't i?

i try to think twice before say anything, especially in serious matter. with this, i hope no one would be hurt with things i say. i love those people around me, and i don't want their smiles fade and replaced with sorrow. 

happiness is a choice. if i can't let it happens, i have to make it happens.