Pace

Been talking with sister about what our future life will be. Those time when we will spend most with our own family, and not this setiawan fam anymore.
It's a bit awkward, for the fact we will not live under the same roof, or maybe not on the same town nor country. The fact that these time we spent together when we sleep together, had breakfast together on school days, tea time in the evening, all the pranks, laughters, tears, fights will be merely a memoir one day just made me cherish every single moment of family togetherness.

I remember when they asked me why i drink cheap tea 'sariwangi' while they drink internationally recognized branded tea with various types such as assam, english breakfast, ceylon, etc.

I remember when we were searching for nds console everywhere, and it ends up found in sister's bag.

I remember when daddy cooks omelete for breakfast for us, a very rare thing that 'big boss' would do.

I remember when brother do his assignments to list up his strengths and weaknesses, and he innocently wrote 'too handsome' as his strength and 'never kick people' as his weakness which made his sisters burst in laughter.

I remember those time in chinese new year that we spent in grandpa house. And now as he passed away, it moved to mine.

I always remember the zhang family, the ghost stories we shared, and everything. Now everyone of them are chasing their dreams. From music teacher, Fashion designer, business woman, freelance designer, even those who are still in school.

I always remember the time when mommy reminds me that i'm the eldest daughter in this family. I have a responsibility to protect and to care and to fulfill my siblings needs. This is what my parents told me
"be a good sister. Always remember you have both of them on your shoulder. Care for your siblings as you three shared the same flesh and blood. You must complete each other, and stay well. Later when we died, I and your daddy will always look upon you from heaven above. And when i see you my children are living in harmony, that would be a bliss to us."

And what if i don't?
Well, daddy promise he will return from the grave and chase me every morning.

So... I do.