dislike the loneliness

today is sunday, and i always go church for the second morning service.
i used to go alone by myself, but as time goes by i began to hate it. it doesn't mean i hate church, no. no at all. i like church, i love the environment, the people, and the awesome feeling when i praise and worship. the only one i dislike is: the after church.
as i mentioned before, i used to go church alone. it was before i joined TLG and musical thing. well, getting involved in such activities contribute lots lots things which influence me to who am i now, and i knew more people and make more friends. that time, i always go somewhere after church and started to realized how much i hate to eat alone. in fact, i never eat alone by myself surrounded by people whom i don't even bother to know. back in school time, i had my breakfast with siblings, lunch with bunch of school mates. when i'm home, i had my snacks and dinner with siblings or even with my parents.

some advantages for having somebody to eat with:

• ease to find seats. i realized this when i had my lunch in food court in orchard area. it always really crowded man. when you go eat with 2 or more people, you can disperse and look around for available seats. it might take some time if you had lots of people eating together, but it's worth it.
• ease to order food. imagine if you are eating alone by yourself, and have to order food in one food court stall. there are two choices: either you find seat first then order food, or order the food then find a seat. if you choose to find the seat first, the moment you back from ordering some foods, your seat might be occupied, and now you have to go round and round again to find a seat. if you choose to left some of your belongings to indicate that the seat is taken, there still slightest possibility that the moment you back, the seat is occupied and your belongings are gone. 
• the sense of belonging. according to what i learned in IRHR1001, there is one thing called Maslow's hierarchy of needs. this theory illustrates human needs as pyramid, and it will goes to upper level only if the lower level is satisfied. the sense of belonging is on the third level, with safety needs at one lower level, and self esteem at one higher level. one time, i was eating alone in the food court and there was one couple besides me. they had their food with joy, without rushing and had some awesome conversations (at least that was what i thought). automatically, i compare (bad habit among humanity) them to myself. they might see me as "one pathetic girl, who does not has somebody to eat with... who knows that she might not has any friends?" off course that was what on my thoughts, and to be honest it does lowered my self esteem. 

today is sunday, i went church alone by myself. yes, i didn't have somebody to eat with, but now i know what i suppose to do: takeaway, and eat somewhere else. 

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